A couple days before Christmas an amazing, once in a lifetime, dream opportunity was placed before me. It came as a shock because it was bittersweet. It meant someone else was moving on, which was a sad thing to see because the person + the opportunity ='d awesomeness, but it is what I've always wanted. But I pretty much threw the idea out the window because the timing wasn't right and so I avoided the subject. Then I talked to someone that knows alot on the subject and she kind of reassured my thoughts. Fast forward to today and here I am mulling over the opportunity (nearly a month later) and trying to figure out what to do. I'm so confused, yes this is what I've dreamed of, but I like my life how it is right now. Things are finally starting to come together w. dreams that will most likely come true in a year or so which would throw a huge wrench in the opportunity. I'm so confused!! Basically I'm at a huge fork in the road between life plans and career plans. They're both want I want; however, they don't really go together. So do I put one on hold and chase my dreams or do I count my blessings for all I have and let the opportunity pass me by? My biggest fear is regret. I do. not. want. to. regret. letting this pass me by in 6 months and wishing I had taken the leap. I guess it mainly comes down to the unknown. It would bring so many little changes to my life while also bringing so many joys. However, there's a lot of change and a lot of uncertainties. So do I take a huge leap of faith and jump or just continue going through life, comfortable with everything? Comfort or believing that God always provides?
I came across this quote when I was reading a devotional the other night...was this God's way of saying "do it"? Or was this a just a coincidence? As a type A, control freak do I let go of the control over my life and hand it off to someone else?
Regret for the things we did can be tempered by time; it is regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable -Sydney Harris
Oh to be a child again, when the biggest decision was what outfit Barbie should wear!