Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Which Way?!?!

A couple days before Christmas an amazing, once in a lifetime, dream opportunity was placed before me.  It came as a shock because it was bittersweet.  It meant someone else was moving on, which was a sad thing to see because the person + the opportunity ='d awesomeness, but it is what I've always wanted.  But I pretty much threw the idea out the window because the timing wasn't right and so I avoided the subject.  Then I talked to someone that knows alot on the subject and she kind of reassured my thoughts.  Fast forward to today and here I am mulling over the opportunity (nearly a month later) and trying to figure out what to do.  I'm so confused, yes this is what I've dreamed of, but I like my life how it is right now.  Things are finally starting to come together w. dreams that will most likely come true in a year or so which would throw a huge wrench in the opportunity.  I'm so confused!!  Basically I'm at a huge fork in the road between life plans and career plans.  They're both want I want; however, they don't really go together.  So do I put one on hold and chase my dreams or do I count my blessings for all I have and let the opportunity pass me by?  My biggest fear is regret.  I do. not. want. to. regret. letting this pass me by in 6 months and wishing I had taken the leap.   I guess it mainly comes down to the unknown.  It would bring so many little changes to my life while also bringing so many joys.  However, there's a lot of change and a lot of uncertainties.  So do I take a huge leap of faith and jump or just continue going through life, comfortable with everything?  Comfort or believing that God always provides?

I came across this quote when I was reading a devotional the other night...was this God's way of saying "do it"? Or was this a just a coincidence?  As a type A, control freak do I let go of the control over my life and hand it off to someone else?
Regret for the things we did can be tempered by time; it is regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable  -Sydney Harris
Oh to be a child again, when the biggest decision was what outfit Barbie should wear!


  1. These seem to be the hardest choices we have to make as we mature -- between two great things that don't fit together. The best thing to do is to look at how each reflects what you want or value you most in your life, and to just, not, regret the decision you make. Both will be good for you by the sounds of it. Good luck!

  2. I'm a type A, control freak as well and I struggle with this same thing all the time. Decisions between life and career can be so difficult because usually it seems as if you have to sacrifice one for the other. I pray you'll find guidance to know that you have made the right decision!

  3. As someone who sincerely regrets no making a go at a real career and staying in a dead-end job that she hated for longer than she should have, I say go for it. The worst feeling is regret!!!!